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pyramidas are the bell curve. triangles are the bell curve. at the highest point(s) the most average is formed. or rather at the exact highest point something special happens. god and then the surrounding points are in his image but not that special point.

triangles harness life energy. cultures of varied locations back this up. a symbol of the natural processes tht make up everything.


.pyramid pyro fire sun god.

omnilinguistic

unlikely friends is a term to describe the universe and the balance of oposite forces. clashing states that directly interfere with each other but work together harmoniously nonetheless

unlikely friends

im starting to have some really simplifying ideas at work. and other times i cant bring myself off my ass to put action into motion and occupy my time. i have been reading more however. i wnder what my life will be like after i have read this book .. into the future im thrusted, blindly flung down the well of time

freefall domino

duality of man, outer shell inner beauty working together to form the whole, the outside is security , the inside is freedom,

the outer shell of a person,(what others see you as) influenced by your perception of what style and design mean is meant to protect you so you can go from place to place, the more layers you wear the more safe you feel. thick winter jacket. facemask. gloves. winter is for hiding. hibernation? your inner spirit,and free-will are stifled by the cold and white snowy blankets, layers of the earth, a thick coat of water to cover and renew the inner more expressive summer.


the inner spirit of a person,(what noone can change, a bursting hot inferno of imagination, creativity, expression. isolation steals away the need to shell (protect, conceal, layer, complicate) you r outer self is more free and visual. timid creativity? social society sociopath evils of humanity. to protect from the crowded huddled cramped masses.



security when theres no freedom
freedom when theres no security



the more people in a park, the more ruined the parks beauty. population is the bane of humanity.

shopping malls, complex, cage,



we are herded, the shepard steers us
religon accept this, create more people,
go to church, pack in the pew,and you will be guided.

anarchy, antichrist,

freedom freeedom free dominion domino freefall

stats an' lats

mountains and the bell curve. meditate on that.

ambiguous analogies

ambiguity is simple


today as i was driving to work (after being called in) i was thinking about



the "right way"
which i would loosely define as taking the appropriate actions in my current life to enable me to live my life, and be as happy as possible in my final moment(the moment immediately before my death)

looking into my definition further, i realise there are two conditions that must be met in order to be happy. extend my life and be happy in my final moment

nature vs nurture

i think these two sides represent a learned or egotistical side and an inherant natural urge to be happy

death is necesary and natural to all life on earth so why try to manipulate it? to extend life? i think is also a natural instinct just

as deer run from hunters we take medication? is this the same? i think humans go the extra mile. we fight the death that comes from age. what other animal runs from old age like we?

is death a predator?

is it too much of a strain on nature for humans to extend their life? how could it be? anything we could concieve
of doing is natural, because were natural a bird builds a nest a human builds a house.

cant nature adjust? maybe it does, it must. whos to say what is because of what? butterflies causing tornados? maybe we have created cancer or aids or one of the many epidemics thy have come, or maybe we have created them all just by existing we use and push an manipulate and all these things are done to us in retaliation.


you cant stop nature, dont get caught on these words

remember what the feeling of it not the word you would use represent it.

the more simple of a life you have, the happier you will be.

i think meditation is vacationing in a more pure mindest, just feeling and seeking. like crawling through the darkness of a cave, experience and emotion, contemplation and complexity, the fuel feeds and motion is set.


analogy is my rosetta stone

southerners sound strange

This job has become a vice and I don't enjoy waiting for my boss Eric to call down here with some cockameme idea to occupy my time in this wilting Wilton storefront.

I love alliteration

I've been thinking a lot lately about language words sounds noises and grammar, mostly how language is specific to area and how and environment can shape a dialect, like accents


Southerners sound strange to me but to a Brit both me and my southernly cousin sound the same. It's hard to understand the differences when thinking about your own accent. Like hearing your voice on a recording, it never sounds the same as what you hear when you listen to yourself speak

An even more thought provoking are other languages. I guess a different language is really just a different set of sounds to represent everything. cat in English shares the same meaning as gato in Spanish

Evolution isn't linear so does that mean that other species have formed other useful ways to communicate amongst themselves or posibly even to communicate effectively with other species as well?

Maybe they already do I guess.
do we?

My dog knows what the sound means when I say "outside" in that special tone and pitch with the right accent on the right part of the sound. So

am I communicating with her?
Does she know some English
or is it just the sounds she knows
If so isn't that what language is anyways?
Can she be taught other sounds?

I'm thinking now that the sounds she knows now she is interested in them and learns them because they have to do with something she wants intensely so she.... cares? About that sound or about the sound I make as I pronounce "treat" "bye-bye" or "shake" she doesn't care about money so she doesn't know what "broke" means or even "ten" for that matter

Do humans have language because we've convinced ourselves to care about everything we have a word for? Does this explain why we don't have equivalent words in every language for every other word in all other languages? Because we don't care? Don't.. need.. To have it?

or possibly instead of having one word for everything we partially use our language system to make equations to achieve new meanings out of groupings of words?

Similar to our number system and the 0 - 9 characters. We don't need to have a separate symbol for each number up to infinity, we simply combine whatever characters represent the right amounts together and that combination is the symbol for the sought amount

Is there an infinity in the language system?
could you combine words (sounds) together until you run out of new sounds(words)? And then reuse the appropriate words in specific combinations to achieve other representations? I think so.

I am pretty sure that what I just described is what happens when someone who has a knowledge of and uses language(sounds) says something. Sometimes it's many words or sometimes it's just very large words,


Can verbal language be manipulated with grammar like the number system is manipulated with equation? Isn't it already?


Can an 'equation' be made to take language in a different direction? To simplify the meaning with one noise or communication?

Is this the spark of life?
Is this the obelisk again?
Is this a sound?
Does this exist in a different species or even already in our own?

keeping in mind I could be way off

waiting

Lately I find myself waititng for passion to strike, and I get nervous in this very frustrating way. Am I dragging my feet and under utilizing my time here or anywhere?

Well right now I'm waiting for ball to get out of work, who knows what well do tonight. Most likely sit at his house and chill a bit. I always feel unwanted when his girlfriend is peering at me

Well I guess I don't know that she does that, but I swear sometimes I can feel the tension and concentrated stare on my skin like almost as to poke me on the shoulder.

The things I know now
What are these sounds and images
These thoughts and instincts
With a stirring curiosity, revolving psychology circular and eccentric philosophy

Things need to start getting done

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